Mind's Forge : Saying Nothing In So Many Words

Thomas Aquinas, well known Catholic theologian from the 13th century was a prolific writer up until the 6th of December 1273 when he experienced an unusually strong divine ecstasy, beatific vision or revelation that was so profound that he broke his daily routine of writing and left his famous Summa Theologica unfinished. When his friend Reginald begged him to continue his work Thomas replied “Mihi videtur ut palea” or

“All that I have written seems like straw to me”1

Straw, trash, common in the face of whatever he experienced there at the age of 49 and proceeded to die 3 months later. Everytime I write I know it is nigh nothing in the face of the infinite, and I don’t know much.

Writing like this feels like writing with “purpose”, a desire to change something: minds, the future, ourselves. But once you’ve seen a bit more than just “the parade”2 you realize writing (or anything) shouldn’t be done from that center. Just as humanity was stuck in a geocentric view of the universe for millennia a vast majority have been self-righteously acting from a simplified model of self and cosmos.

All statements are true in some sense, false in some sense, meaningless in some sense, true and false in some sense, true and meaningless in some sense, false and meaningless in some sense, and true and false and meaningless in some sense. The Free Mantra of Sri Syadasti Syadavaktavya Syadasti Syannasti Syadasti Cavaktavyasca Syadasti Syannasti Syadavatavyasca Syadasti Syannasti Syadavaktavyasca Principia Discordia

I have no desire to tell people how to live (only because it is folly), I know every person is driven from unconscious places, these driving actions and emotions are rationalized after the “spark” is received. There are a lot of texts on the structure of the mind, body of “God”, the Temple of Solomon, Kabbalistic Tree of Life, bardos, Samsara and Satori, the art of Alchemy as revealed by C.G. Jung, so on and so forth. Studying these texts and the alphabets that the texts are generated from, building connections and correspondences between personal experience and the mystery texts throughout the ages can be useful to the dedicated student of the occult, just as a thesaurus is useful to a writer. However, the complexity generated from the act of dividing and classifying the mysteries is more harmful than useful for the person looking for a set of philosophical heuristics to keep whatever part of themselves that is “eternal” in control of their lives. Just like cancer begins as a cell within an organism, a person acting from their own small will (vs. their True Will3) becomes at odds with the Universe.

You do not know what you are or what you want, therefore: “Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law”, with practice there is stillness, an emptiness more valuable than that of all the world’s riches.

Now that we’ve got through that introduction, basically saying that anything I write is trash in the face of True Experience of the ((Divine(Infernal))), cosmos, Universe, God(head) I’ll write my current perspective on perspectives, morality(what is Good and right), aesthetics(what is beautiful), ontology(what exists) and epistemology(how I know) as well as the paranormal, collective unconscious, and the biomechanical interplay with the fractal-geometric super-symmetrical tendencies of Physics… that unique gift of Life. A general cosmology.

First, look at creation myths and stories. Look up cosmological chaos, this is what everything is made out of. What is “chaos”? The waters before they were divided in genesis, the Principle in the Tao te Ching before becoming Heaven and Earth and subsequently the multitude of “things”. We also need to examine nothing, especially the three nothings of the Jewish mystical tradition known as Kabbalah. Known to the kabbalists as AIN (NOTHING), AIN SOPH (NO LIMIT) and AIN SOPH AUR (LIGHT WITHOUT LIMIT) where were we before we were born?

From nothing, chaos. From chaos the first divisions are made, how and where? Where are you? How are you deciding what you are right now? This same process being carried out in an eternal fashion, unfolding from the fountain most commonly known as the “big bang”, or maybe more appropriately the big banging, as it hasn’t finished. The origin of time, Einstein proved that space and time were NOT. The nature of existence is much more accurately portrayed by a unified SPACE-TIME continuum, space and time were created out of a common self and inseparable in any real sense. Just as it took hundreds of years for people to truly accept the heliocentric model of the solar system, it will be generations before humanity has a grasp on the unification of space-time and the implications.

Now familiar with the primordial chaos, the various names of the elementary particles, fields, and goetic demons we can proceed to make some claims as they do from behind university podiums and the church pulpits. These claims are made after reciting the The Free Mantra of Sri Syadasti of course freeing me of any sort of repercussions, any problem you find with what is said is of course the “false” sense, anything you agree with is “true”, this is how the lazy mind exists and generally minds are lazy, mine not excluded.

Reality is a dynamic process when viewed from inside, or a “certain level”. However I like the idea of an eternally STATIC and DETERMINISTIC universe (versus the idea of Free Will) with our experience being more akin to a record needle on a 12” vinyl.

We can’t test this viewpoint, so it makes it absolutely useless for the person looking for JUST A FEW SIMPLE RULES to live a good life! What difference does it make if we actually have free will instead of just feeling like we have freewill? The intelligent reader’s behaviour won’t change, the imbecile will become “lazier” because “why do anything if it’s all determined anyway”. If anything should change at all in the reader, let the knot of discomfort in your abdomen begin to unwind because there’s a good chance what you feel is “you” and “your choices” is NOT. Why is there a good chance? “I feel real! I feel here!” the ego cries out… in PAIN nonetheless, hurt. Eckhart Tolle rips into this painbody ego with a gentle vengeance if you’re curious about those feelings and how to deal with them straight from the mouth of yet another modern day guru. This ego thing is pretty heavy stuff and most don’t even loosen their grasp until the day they die. Similar to that feeling of vertigo, falling, letting go of that SELF is scary. Why do we want to let go of our “self”? Our ego? Because to get further into the mysteries we need to at least QUIET it first with a goal of complete dissolution (SOLVÈ in the alchemical tongue). When we quiet ego with various yoga (meditation, bland food, regulation of media consumed, all various forms of asceticism) we are acting as a harmonic of that original creation, that stilling of the waters that is necessary to even begin the complexification operations that continue in this VERY MOMENT.

Even at this point, this great unknown where it relates to will, I’ve found it generally prudent to have a connection to a higher power, a greater Will than my own little greedy ego. I lifted this from the 12 step Alcoholics Anonymous program, I never participated but have been exposed to the system by proxy. There is another gem that sticks out from A.A.: “To thy own self be true” -- I’m sure they have to drill the “higher will” concept into participants heads before that quote had any sort of pull against that twisted little imp, addiction. The funny thing is the American “work-a-holic” is an acceptable form of addiction, along with more obvious degeneracy, but I’ll leave the moral grandstanding for another time. Atheists need not feel excluded from trying their hand at pragmatic epistemology. If you need to call it Dark Energy or The Force (thank you Star Wars) go ahead, but the only way having a greater force will work is if we shrink ourselves and let the larger picture impress on our lives and our actions. Look at all the people suffering for some made up thing they want, a something for a someone who isn’t really even there in the big picture. Not only that but are enticed into loops of desire and suffering by ancient multi-generational egregores of 3-ring binders and conference room meetings.

As the demon parted he said: “Good luck, bleeding soul, I’ve killed everyone I’ve told.” and with a wink and a flick of her tail vanished into my rumpled sheets, the comfort of a familiar pain lulled me back to SLEEP. It’s just the Calculus.

The problem is, if it’s not evocative or at least entertaining, then reading and writing my philosophy would be worse than a waste of time. It would be part of that grand summation over the infinite set known as Eternal Damnation.

A good way to approach philosophy is examination and re-examination from different points of view. I would rather converse and argue with someone who has legitimately emotionally empathized with their Shadow to the point of generating very similar argument, or hopefully most of the time a BETTER argument. This takes effort. Burns literal calories, these calories are some of the most real things that exist in this Human Experience, subsequently I don’t do this much anymore, I take the shortcut of “Yeah, I know what you know is True and Good.” at some fundamental level somewhere. Even if the knowledge is “horrible and (self)destructive” from my egotistical point of view. And we don’t want to fall into the “Everything is Subjective” wormhole here, which it’s very easy to do, I’ll reach for Alfred Korzybski’s “Structural Differential” and idea that each of us is actively abstracting some unknowable “process” in order to create each of our experiences of phenomena. Science and Sanity can be an anchor in the sea of chaos.

After we establish our chaotic foundations from which we will stir up the base elements. The tetragrammaton. Each element maps to a magical operation, Earth, the pentacle, the plate, the coin. The experience. On an MMORPG character this would be the EXP, not necessarily the skill tree, but the skill tree will enable the plate to be filled. I don’t really want to write the next magick book right now, but maybe that’s my True Will… I wanted to in the past, started and gave up, but maybe this time I’ll have to give up on giving up. Sorry it degraded into stream of consciousness and magickal grimoire. You just wanted something from me justifying my Evil Plans for releasing invasive species… which I don’t really have plans to do at all, maybe I fantasize, but I fantasize a lot of effed up stuff, right? But you’re right, what I am doing may seem like I’m taking steps towards releasing the beast, but it’s merely research, maybe I’ll discover a fungal agent to murder the things! One of the seedlings seem to be dying because of some sort of disease.